Trying to find my pace.

Space. And pace.
What pace do I return to.
Conflicted.
Betwixed and between.
The liminal space.

It's time to make your next move darlin.
On a mad mission.
I've got the terrible condition.
Nobody's cryin.

Virgo today:
"You may be having a hard time trusting that something important will fall into place, and everything will work out with a certain venture. You may be thinking about all of the potential downfalls and the resulting disappointment. But each day of your life is filled with moments where you have faith that the best thing will happen, and that's what you have to do with this matter, Virgo. When you drive a car on the highway, you are trusting that you will reach your destination safely. Most of the time, that's what happens. Just believe that your current endeavor will turn out fine, and it will."

Darlin I wish you well.
I can tell how hard you're tryin.
& this one's for me.

& while you hurt with all that pain, the stars will kiss your pretty face.

dance a little closer to me.

& i find myself here. again.

Why is it, when I'm falling to pieces, I find you.

It wasn't your fault. it wasn't anyone's fault. well, maybe it was my fault.

I'm too busy to care. too busy to deal. deal. dealt. dealing. healing. and dealing.
searching for.
searching.
through the pieces.

can i forgive you.
should i forgive you.
oh but your sweet soul.
your sweet sweet soul.
maybe it hurts the most because of your sweetness.

because of your pure ability to pour out love like water from a faucet.
you came to me.
you came and you were there and I was here.
I couldn't give you what you wanted and now.
well, now I find myself on the floor.
reaching out for your love.
your sweet sweet love.
maybe if i had opened my heart sooner.
maybe if i had held your hand tighter.
just maybe.

and so it goes.

what did you teach me.
vulnerability.
love.
laughter.
silliness.
sweet kisses.
dancing in the rain.
we waltzed to the radio late at night.
how to be in love. really. in the love.

are you sure.
finding the real.

you're a good man.
goodness you're a wonderful man. full of light.
best friend.
heart.
i can only wish you the best.
i do hope you find what you're looking for.
happiness.
peace.
& love.
sensational love. i hope you find that.
I hope you find what you're looking for.

i hope the world for you.
you've got a lot to give.
you're worth every moment. every hour.
if i never see you again, you were worth it.

summer nights.
driving with the windows down and the radio up.
singing into your hands.
finding your hand in mine.
country roads.
bed time snuggling.
daytime naps.
christmas love.
family dinners. you're family.
music festivals.
road trips.
on the boat ramp. sweet songs.

you've got to hold on.
hold on to those.
those are good sweet succulent moments of love. and just pure raw life.
i could never not love you.
good luck my love.
this ones for you.